14

TheSex Lives of College Girlsstar kept a password-protected Microsoft Word journal and yes, it was angsty.

My social life really was my ballet friends, Chalamet says.

And the thing that I would spend money on was maybe getting a slice of pizza.

‘The Sex Lives of College Girls’ star Pauline Chalamet opens up about her life at age 14, including …

Though she would study ballet well into her teens, 2006 was a year of transition.

And then I started LaGuardia, and Im like, LaGuardia is actually great.

Youre a young professional, she says.

Fifteen years before playing Kimberly on ‘The Sex Lives of College Girls,’ Pauline Chalamet was grow…

Take me back to 2006.

You said you kept a journal what did you glean from looking back at those entries?

They were pretty angsty my emotions were completely black and white.

Fifteen years before playing Kimberly on ‘The Sex Lives of College Girls,’ Pauline Chalamet was grow…

Stupid, stupid, stupid.I would let myself give a shot to do that.

But then, sometimes, Id also put little asterisks.

What kind of student were you?

Fifteen years before playing Kimberly on ‘The Sex Lives of College Girls,’ Pauline Chalamet was grow…

I was a relatively good student, academically.

If a teacher said something or did something I didnt like, I responded.

I had a lot of attitude.

Fifteen years before playing Kimberly on ‘The Sex Lives of College Girls,’ Pauline Chalamet was grow…

And what about your personal life how were you feeling about growing up?

Fourteen is when I fell in love for the first time.

Like, really fell in love.

It was a literal awakening.

But I didnt really know what that meant.

I felt embarrassed about it, too.

Did that first love ever pan out?

No, it didnt.

Yeah, it felt like those emotions were more about me than they were about him.

He might have been evoking them.

But at night, I was projecting and imagining things that werent at all [related to him].

What was your sense of style at the time?

I would wear either high-heeled shoes or running sneakers there was no middle ground.

Nothing simple, nothing normal.

Were you thinking about college at 14?

Which of theSex Livesmaincharacters would you have aspired to be back then?

Oh my god, if I were 14 and thinking about college, it would be Leighton all day.

What makes you feel 14 today for better or for worse?

Sometimes when Im watching movies, I get so wholeheartedly invested in whats happening.

Now, its different scenarios.

This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity.