Or it veers off into some weird lesbian thing.
I think that ultimately it’s their shame that killed them, Fox says.
It wasn’t like they were doing all this stuff, but I wasn’t.
I was doing it right there with them.
And I have felt a lot of guilt over that, too.
Like, Why am I here, and they’re not?
But she knew the power their stories held.They’re casualties of opioid epidemic.
Their death means something way more than me just losing my best friend.
I’m okay with it now.
As Fox says, I wasn’t going to let their shame win anymore.
Below, Fox reflects on her love of popsicles, Reddit, and hair dryers.
On the joys of IYKYK books:
I’m currently reading two books.
One is [BritishVogueeditor-in-chief] Edward Enninful’s memoir,A Visible Man.
Then I just started [controversial internet celebrity]Caroline Calloway’s book,Scammer, last night.
I do think you have to know her internet history and her personal drama to get the book.
It’s an, if you know, you know kind of book.
On using sweet treats for motivation:
Im a big ice cream and popsicle person.
When I was writing, Id probably eat a whole box of lemon popsicles a day.
By the end, my whole desk was just [covered in] popsicle sticks.
It was sticky and gross.
I would have a reward system: finish this chapter and you get a popsicle.
Then I’d be looking forward to it.
My stylist works out of it, and so does my best friend,Richie [Shazam].
So, I would just turn on a hair dryer to tune them out.
I’m sure people were looking at me like, “What is wrong with her?”
But it was my secret weapon.
As soon as it’s bedtime, I turn it on, and he’s out like a light.
Or, “What’s your psychic story?”
It really feeds my soul.
This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity.
This article was originally published onOct.
